You know... I really hate everything at the moment. what the fuck is wrong with humanity!? what is wrong with america!? I mean, the cops somehow think they are above the law, china practically owns us, and the government is wiping their asses with the peoples social security checks!! Humanity is a pain in my ass because everyone is greedy little fuck out for their own interest... sometimes I swear I'm not human.everyone talks about how helpful and giving I am at my school, or how amazing or perfect or fucking flawless I am! I will never be able to truly live up to that!! It makes me sick how much people expect out of each other... and that goes both ways. they either expect you to be superman or a fucking deadbeat! am I the only one who doesn't have insane amounts of expectations for anyone but myself!!? I am sick of just giving and giving and giving just to be stepped on like a god damn stool in return! I hate everything right now... my relationship, my home life, my school life, and even most of my "friends"! where am I supposed to go for the next two months to find some peace? maybe some fulfillment?? I will turn 18 on february 2nd... but until then, I am stuck.
those who agree reply... I will ignore trolls.
Hello there,
ReplyDeleteIt seems as though things haven't really improved in the world since your post. If anything, things are even worse. And it certainly doesn't help when people around you put that much pressure on you. Even if they mean it in a positive way, it can still come off as condescending or even outright dismissive. I'd rather someone tell me to just go fuck myself for as much as those sorts of people really "see" me. It's hard to be around people like that, and when I've been in that situation I find myself withdrawing from the world. I hope you've managed to find better people to be around, spouse included. I hope the last two years have been good to you.
I'm writing to let you know I've responded to your comment on zephyrsolace.blogspot.com and, if you want the information, you should hop on over and grab it before I delete the blog. Speaking of withdrawing, what I wrote 5 years ago is still a part of me but a very, very... very rough part. It needs editing lol.
Thanks for your message. Happy holidays ♥
-Ro